Confession of a character flaw

I wrote the following to one of you, but it applies to all...

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I run from conflict instead of facing it. It is my own problem; I did it with J&S and I did it with you. I do it to girlfriends and did it with a best friend from college. It leaves much confusion in its vacuum.

I just don't like difficult discussions. Stress from conflict quite literally makes me physically ill and causes my thoughts to become incoherent. I go mildly catatonic and just try to wait out difficult topics. At a certain point, the stress just gets too much and I disappear. This happens so much that in high-school I named it my "Human Reset" as I take the time to clear my mind, decompress and refocus internally and on my goals.

I am sorry to have left you in limbo for so long. That was not fair. Once again in my life, I had to retreat.

I am sorry.